Spiders are the only things that really do me in, so to speak. I just hate the whole idea of them. For awhile it was sharks, and for all intents and purposes, I still have a fear of sharks, but not like I used to. Now it is more of a reverential respect bordering on fear, but since the "Summer of the Shark" three years ago, I've actually learned to dig them in a weird way. There were a lot of magazine articles that summer explaining sharks and their behavior, and I can honestly say I'm not as afraid of them as I used to be. They're actually pretty cool.
OK, here comes my big opening up to the Indy community moment--takes a deep breath--that summer, I went to St. Thomas for a family reunion. The plane flight home was bad--REAL bad, lots of turbulance. I don't mind take offs, I don't mind landings, it's the whole staying up there part that bothers me.
Well, like I said, there was a lot of turbulance. So much so, that I was extremely tense the whole flight.
That was stupid on my part, because when I got home, I ended up with an anxiety disorder. I was so tense for so long, that I disrupted my Serotonin levels in my brain. Serotonin is the chemical that keeps you stable and happy. When it doesn't flow freely, you get paranoid and anxious. I spent my days after that flight--whole days--having one long anxiety attack.
I would take walks in the area parks to get over it, to keep my mind distracted. Walks turned into jogs. I started taking Paxil to get the Serotonin levels back to normal, and I jogged to stay active and to clear my head of paranoid thoughts.
They say that sharks have to keep moving to stay alive--if they stop moving they die. So I adopted the shark as my "spiritual mascot", if you will. I felt that I had to keep moving to stay alive, to get better. And I did. I fought my way back to the state of well being I was in before everything got weird for me. And I haven't had an anxiety attack since.
I guess the point is that sometimes phobias can be overcome, if you look at them from a different point of view.